My last blog i posted got me thinking and made me want to write more about my religious background.
Alot of people wonder why i chose to become a CHRISTIAN. Well i look at it as a better path for me to live life for Christ. I come from a huge Catholic family...well i call it a STRICT catholic family. (You know how filipino familys are) anyway like i said i come from a strict catholic family meaning it is disrespectful to change religions, pray the rosary at least once a day, hail mother mary, go to confession every week. but, it wasnt really the right path for me. Becoming a Christian is an amazing experience filled with tears and happpyness. I started going to bible studies last year during mid feb. so almost a year. i actually enjoyed it! as being catholic i would fall asleep during church and wish to never go, always trying to find reasons not to go...pretending im sleeping. but i enjoy bible studies. i started to get more into it and started to go to more youth events and a christian church. July 5, 2008 I accepted jesus Christ in my heart as my lord and savior at my church's family camp. Right then and there GOD became my first priority. I have made this decision while my parents were in the philippines so they had no clue about this. when i came back from camp i tried telling my mom about my conversion but it was too hard. i talked to her about getting saved she told me she already accepted him in her heart but im not too sure she knew what i was talking about. so my parents come back home. it took about 2 months to tell my mother about me converting into christianity. September 4, 2008 the day i got baptized as a Christian the day i was reborn. that day i was asking my mom if i can go to a baptism i didnt want to say that i was getting baptized because i knew she would stop me from going. as soon as i asled her about it she said why? your getting baptized? i didnt want to lie so i tokd the truth. she was yelling at me for about 1 hour, i was bursting into tears telling her how much ive changed and how christianity is a better path for me. But she still wouldnt listen. this is what she said to me "You are a liar! you told me that your only going to bible study, and you didnt say that your going to become a christian", "You are brainwashed!", "Get out of my face!!!" by hearing those hurtful words from my own mother i still stayed in the kitchen cause i wanted to prove my point. I looked at my mom and noticed her crying and now i felt guilt thinking why did i do this i hate seeing my mom cry. but i wanted to do what i felt was right for me i have faith that GOD chose this path for me. so i was still standing in the kitchen and my mom said about 3 more times "Get out of my face!!!" so i did i didnt want to make her more angry, and i still went to the baptism. so i went to the baptism making it seem like nothing happened cause i didnt want my church to worry. but that day i got baptized as a Christian. Too bad my mom and dad werent there i wish they could have been there. so my life as a Christian is AMAZING! I read my bible everyday, go to bible study every friday, LOVE to worship GOD anytime, anywhere. I just dont go to church, only because my parents wont let me. once im 18 ill be at my christian church every sunday. other than that everything is getting better my relationship with my mother got better, she still tells me my dad is still mad at me for becoming a christian but hopefully one day they will understand. its all in GODs time. despite everything my parents have done or said to me i still love them to death for who they are, they raised a great boy and i hope they are proud of me. im still living my life day after day praying for the best for my parents to understand. one day, and when that day comes when my family understands my situation with Christ and my whole conversion into chirstianity...ill be filled with tears and happyness once again. I Love You Jesus Christ!
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17 years ago
