Selffish?

So today i learned that i am selfish. i think about myself, i dont care what other people have to do, and all i care about is what im doing and what benefits me. I guess i been like that for quite a long time. Maybe ive always been like this. Well i realized this all today just because i had no way on getting home. Earlier during the week i asked my mother if it was okay to instead of going to bible study today if i can go to my cousins house instead so i can help her with the choreo for her cotillion and also to do some group work for our upcoming project. she seemed okay with the me asking so i assumed she said yes. so today is the day i went to go to my cousins house everything went fine despite the fact we didnt even dance. but then i needed a ride home. at this point i had no way home everyone left her house but at my house everyone was home my sister, mother and father. I didnt want to bother asking my mom and dad because they would get hella pissed at me and as of right now i hella dont want to hear that Bullshit. Anyway, so i asked my sister, she hella sed no even tho i understand that shes sick but i bet 1 million bucks shed get up out of her window and sneak out to go see her boyfriend than to just get in the car and pick me up. she told me that i only think about myself and i never care about what other people have to do. i then talked to my mom knowing that i am going to get in trouble so then i did. she hella yelled at me on the phone saying that i need to find my way home and i always have excuses to hang out and i only care about myself. basically same shit i been hearing for about well over 5 years. I had thoughts of walking home, i really wanted to it would have given me alone time to think and have alone time. But atleast my brother was going to get me. my brother is always there for me. i love my brother...too bad he moved out it would have been so much better if he stayed at home. i miss those days when he lived here. i want him to know that he is the perfect brother a boy can have. i understand why he wasnt able to take me home. back to the subject, at this time i have no way of getting home...i text my bestfriend kristine to see if a friend is at church maybe possibly i can get a ride with her but she sed she wasnt there. but being the perfect bestfriend she found a ride for me. Its like wow! do i really deserve this? i havent been acting as a bestfriend to her and yet she found a ride for me, shes always there for me, shes a great bestfriend and i love her dearly. thanks jeff (kristines brother) for taking me home. this situation teaches me that bestfriends will always be there for you no matter what happens between the two of you if you feel like your not yourself or even if you barely talk....if that made any sense haha. well today was crazyy im glad i got home safely God brought me home. oh and sorry for all the cursing i usually dont curse i was just heated thats all.